and THEN! 2 yrs later your friend starts blogging!

Well!
How do you know at one stage you had a mild problem with online profiles?
when a friend starts up a blog and you go "hey... wait just a cotton pickin minute?? didn't i have one of those as well?"

tada!
man, was i in a bad place tho the last time i wrote here tho?
The good news is that things have since gotten a lot better in life.
a LOT better.

It's not that nothing bad has been happening (friends passing away, friends health failing, breakups etc.) it's just that maybe i eventually dug myself out of my slump and stagnant pond thing i was always complaining about?
Good things happen, bad things happen and life keeps on moving so you choose to stand still or move with it.

I'm NOT in control of everything in fact, i'm in control of very little in my life, but the decisions i have been able to make have been positive lately instead of harmful, tipsy, or completely emotionally induced nonsense :)

ONE of the things i would like to mention is that i removed a friend.
I've having second thoughts about writing this somewhere for a while now so i won't write too much about it at all... but when something that should be sad, instead has such a positive impact on your day to day life, maybe you should acknowledge it.

I said goodbye to a 4yr close relationship mentioned in an earlier post.
In fact when i wrote the last thing about her 2 yrs ago things had already become very toxic.
Yes i'll miss the good person she was... but that person is hidden away very very far down now so i can't see her anyway. As soon as you can accept that not all people grow or change for the better - the better you can look after yourself i guess.

I'm happier now than i was with her around.
And should i actually remember that i have this blog and write here again i hope my new posts reflect this *grin*